Desire like a drug,
Need like a curse.
When did this happen?
I thought indulging would lead to satisfaction...
But now I wait eager for any gesture, word or touch.
Seeking fulfillment of what...
I don't look for myself,
I don't look for any hidden nature.
Its all so obvious, it sits on my skin
It waits in the dark recess of my mind
In every prayer, in every dance -
I seek to lose my self.
To destroy the false remnants of identity
To dig deep beneath my flesh and find what makes me
Through pain, through lust, through need
I have a wayward spirit in me that needs to be bound
I need to lock it away,
tame it with promises of pleasure
tease it with the moments inbetween
it needs to be taken, ravished and left to rediscover itself
Fate is a distorted mirror...
we seek to revisit the events that have shaped us
to control them and learn that we have no power
What will I find when I am gone...
How will it feel to finally join Her
Dancing in the utter darkness of the universe
I cannot bring myself...
I can only bring what She has given me of Herself
In the end all that remains is Her blackness